Wednesday, February 25, 2009
The saddest thing happened today
I hate you
thought of you sickens me
Ive long tried to control it
this truly breaks my heart
its not my nature
and honestly,
its a tragedy
cruelty falls freely from your lips
parts of my fall
break loose
turn to dust
everytime I have to take him back to you
cause guess what its all about him
You wanna believe its you,
Im pining, needing, regretting
lets remember who parted ways
who wanted to stay
It seems incredible
a super power even
how you never remember things
as thier reality
it must be an incredible burden to never be wrong
despite proof you are
maintaining that shit must be alot of work
Call me bitter,
act as if you left me here
if that allows you to sleep at night
Women somehow are always "bitter"
when we hold your ex asses accountable
I wonder how far you have to shove your fingers
inside your ears
to hush the voices
of your insecurities
hide behind pretty things
allow your narcissism to blind you
be dumb enough to buy her lies
groom her Stepford style
shes a good little girl
does as shes told
practices and recites
her worship hymns of you
so you have a constant reminders
to convince yourself
your who you wish you were
loop the shit on repeat
block out your conscious
to hide the lack of integrity
content inside
thats right baby
tighten, straighten that tie
choke back humility
hoping no one will notice
the scared little boy
stay dressed to a t
maybe they wont see then
the child that you are
This is about a child,
ours,
not you
courts have failed to find fairness
youre entitlement is astounding
I stand watching as
her hand that rocks the cradle
your ever increasing disrespect
break at me
but mostly him
He feels our hate
I held to hope for as long as I could
I make no claims to be perfect
the fact Ive come to hate
proves this to be true
yet I can say Im sorry
find humility
Truth is, Im sorry I hate you.
Im sorry to know you.
You truly are just sorry.
Yet, you're still his father.
For that, I will hope
work
pray
that one day,
I can again not hate you.
Until then,
I hope for everyone involved,
she keeps her hands
off my son.
(C)CousinPublising
Posted by CousinSarah ::
7:07 PM ::
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