Monday, June 30, 2008 Grateful....

it's been a while...and I have much to be grateful for...

...him with me all week...I love it

...watching him and the new addition bond...they are totally adorable

...his laugh...its awesome

...great visit home

...ra ra ra ra ra-ah...my lil Nolie Polie

...I got to see her dance...my lil princess...

...my future comic writer...ketchup in his leg...lol I love you Aidan

...my sis...I love every minute we hang out together...even when you keep putting my cups in the sink...

...my brother grilled for me!!! My favorite meal!!!

...time with mom and dad

...helpin dad with the subfloor...wish I was there to help him more....even when it's hot as heck...

...mom is comin in about two weeks!!! Yeah mom! :)

...new opportunities...feels like there might be a good changes comin...

...I know I need to sit my ass down somewhere...lol...I know it...now I just gotta do it

...for the random sign today that read "Breathe, everything is happening as it should be" a message from the creators to me today...thank you...I needed the reminder...

...my girl T...thanks for being there...you have a huge heart and I adore you

...my girl B...thanks for standin up for me mama!!! It felt goooooooood. I am gonna sit my ass down now...lol

...for handling the disappointment...well.

...Saving Grace starts soon...seems like I have been waiting forever...

...the extra day off this weekend...even if I have to work Sunday. lol

...for each day I wake up, get a kiss from my son and go to sleep to do it all over again tomorrow

...some GREAT poetry Sat night. Love did a great job!! Eb did the damn thing!!! And Twain is an amazing poet...and such a sweetie...Shake is lucky I like him talkin about my lil one that way...lol

...you can see such growth in the poets on the Neo team...its awesome

...feet care...gotta love it

....Mucinex...that stuff is the bomb

...getting to talk to Milkdud a little more

...I will be at Neo Thursday... :)

...there are other things I am forgetting right now...but I am thankful for all of the lessons coming

...my nudge from the creators

I just wanted to send my prayers to Shannon's family. I didnt know her well--her poetry was incredible...so much passion. I cant imagine what it is like to lose a child. The family is in my prayers and thoughts...may as much peace as possible find them during this time...

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Saturday, June 07, 2008 Lab creations...

Ok I know it took a minute to get them here, but I am so grateful for them...(see list in the post below!! lol)


This post is from a writing exercise....We were given several similies and told to write 3 for each.

As dark as...

Her memories were as dark as the bedroom's blackness that he crept through at night


That mole on his chin was as dark as the canals of gaping nostrils exhaling something short of sulphuric acid

As silent as...

As he hugged her, she remained as limp and silent as her childhood ragdolls-loved, abused and forgotten

With eyes wide open, her tears fell as silent as an angel's kiss

Underneath vast night skies stars danced as silent as the wishes mouthed in goodnight prayers

As tired as...

Finally home, exhaling deeply she fell into her rocker as tired as those who'd walked the journey before her

Fuming, she was waiting for his ass again--hell, she was as tired as a hooker working overtime on a four day weekend--and he knew it....she shifted into drive and slammed the gas

As tearful as...

Upon hearing the news, pain blinked from her eyes as tearful as seasonal monsoons unleashed from darkened skies

Feeling her hand clasp around his finger for the first time, he was as tearful as the infant he was holding

As beaten as...

The leaning house was as broken and beaten as the children who had lived there--and whose ghosts still do

Fingertips and knuckles worn down, strong sinews holding bones together with amazing agility in hands as beaten as the work that lived her

As homeless as....

In this nauseating comfortable place, she felt as homeless as the last time she sat there-no one believing her

A writer's sporatic thoughts frienzied in between spaces of grey matter, words as homeless as the discombobulated stack of notes and napkins in a poet's bag

As vicious as...

She became undone, sanity slowing fading, broken-hearted she became as vicious as the man who had cut down her struggling spirit

She couldnt accept her own mistakes so to deflect-she became as vicious as the rumor's in a high school locker room

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GREEEATFUL!!!

....all this time with J...I am loving it.

....I get to keep spending tons of time with him.

....family time...god I missed them and I am truly blessed by them.

...Wii with my sister...that is some funniness to watch...me mostly-she knows what she is doing

...Aidan's amazing writing skills....at 7 already has a "chap book" ya'll

...Audrey's greetings and love for me....that is my princess for life...

...Nolan's smile and greater willingness to give me lovin...lol...and of course for the Billy Ray Johnson...."the knight of ka-zaaaaazzzzz" lmao

....Time and talks with mom...I have loved our time this visit...and that she is coming to my home in a few weeks. :)

....helping dad in the addition....makes me still feel like his little girl....

....my M 'n M-Cat Daddy-heavenly blessing....I didnt believe you exsisted. You keep me in smiles. Destiny and the creators are forever in my debt....cant wait to see you.

....that he is gonna be on Let's Make a Deal and rock it OUT :) I will be your Texas Cheerleader Cat Daddy!!! lol

...dreams...the big and little ones

....the love of poetry in my heart again...never really left but was surely lost for a while...

....my boy Bfran's willingness to lend me his new writing book....I am usin it brotha!!! Thank you SO much!!!

...for being part of the writing lab...Bfran...I NEED MORE!!!!!!!!!! :) Thank you for always offering your home to us and poetry...

...Funky Mike...thank you. thank you. thank you. You are helping me make a dream come true. :)

...Jo and her bad self....Im loving knowing you better...TWO o'clock....TWO lolololololololol

...the quote "all who wander are not lost"-it's true, fitting, and part of the journey....

...standing up for myself...REALLY standing up for myself...looking past the fear into action...(Kim I still read the list of "fear" you gave me....thank you...they help me on harder days)

...that I will see my girl B in about two weeks. Miss the stuffins outta you homie.

...that we made it safe thru the insane storms yesterday....that really was scary...and we are ok and I was with family

...that mom gets to spend 3 weeks with her sis....I know how awesome it is to have that time...

...as always, my ipod, God bless me if anything ever happens to it...lol

...shedding unneeded skin and feeling more comfortable in my own

...hearing the creators talk to me a little....I really am trying to listen....

...forgiving myself and others even more....

...being ok with where we are...everything for a reason...

...the promotion....you're movin' on up to the big leeeeagues lolol

...the upcoming poet :D

...being able to post lab creations after this post

...possibilities....

...the creators...thank you for every single blessing, please continue to point me in the right direction.

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